Why I REALLY talk about my mental illness + a short update

About a month and a half ago, in a frenzied manic state, I wrote an article called “almost killed myself, fake on Instagram + other things I shouldn’t talk about”. I didn’t edit, re-read, or think twice when I posted it. Overnight, that became my most read post on this blog. At first, that was frightening. It went from no one knowing to nearly everyone … Continue reading Why I REALLY talk about my mental illness + a short update

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what having bipolar disorder feels like

  It has been a hot second since I’ve posted anything. One of my last posts about my almost-suicide got a lot more attention than I could’ve imagined. It weirdly deterred me from writing more, honestly. I just returned from another trip from the hospital, I had barely entered my doorway when inspiration struck for a poem. I spent the next five hours, writing a … Continue reading what having bipolar disorder feels like

A Letter for a Lover.

911 what’s your emergency? Could a heart actually burst with love? Lying in your arms, I find my chest ache, an indescribable feeling, For once I’m at loss for words, Mesmerized by your breaths Memorizing the moment Stillness Softly snoring I didn’t know I could love like this. Could I freeze this moment? Could I freeze this feeling? I look over in pure awe. Do … Continue reading A Letter for a Lover.

a tug of the tether.

“No” “I’m tired” “I’m sleepy” “Not right now” He turned away, “I’m not mad” His lips pressed together, I brought my mouth to his.   Wiping my tears, Slapping the steering wheel. “You’re better than this.” Eyes in the rearview mirror, No longer mine But wholeheartedly his.   One step back, One dark look, A tug of the tether, I took two steps forward.   … Continue reading a tug of the tether.

Cheat on your wife and quit your job.

A middle-aged white man is wallowing in regret as he tells Kumail Nanjani how he cheated on his wife and made the biggest mistake of his life. It was a moment of weakness, the pleasure didn’t even last a moment, he was filled with regret. A marriage spanning decades crumbles with a bad decision. “You’ll know you’re with the love of your life when you … Continue reading Cheat on your wife and quit your job.

I’m a romantic and I LOVE it.

I was partly inspired to write this blog post while reading one of my all-time favorite books, The Wrath and the Dawn by Renee Ahdieh for a third time. It’s just one of those books that describes love so poetically and beautifully where I can’t help but think “I wish I had the capability to write words that beautifully.” But Renee Ahdieh was only part … Continue reading I’m a romantic and I LOVE it.